yeah, its been awhile, thought I'd update you all


So, I have not been very active here for awhile, I've been trying to draw stuff, but no really good ideas get into my head, and I wont do Art Trades anymore, I just can risk upsetting anyone when I cant deliver.

I've been sort of feeling depressed lately, and not really having any will to do anything, Im trying to find a job and secure some money for myself, and frankly my self esteem has been dropping with each passing day.

And about RP War II, I am really, really trying hard to work on this for you guys, but nothing seems to be working. I try to draw some pictures for it, but that doesn't work, and whenever I start to write, it just doesn't feel right and I quit. I want to do this RP War, I really really do, but I feel like I cant make it great, and my lack of confidence in myself sure has not helped me write this thing.

I feel myself slowly slipping away from the Invader Zim fandom, I mean I still love that show, and the characters I have created from it, not to mention all the awesome people I have had the pleasure to meet, but I guess my interests have been leaning more to my Military side, as some can tell from the military picture I've posted.

I guess what I am saying is that, frankly, I've fed up with alot of things, mostly myself, and this rant is a vent because I cannot just tell people how I really feel, afraid of hurting them, or worse. So yeah, ignore this if you want to